conventional doesn't mean correct

it all started when we were watching the voice. (do i sound dramatic lool) james byron, a contestant, walked out. i said oh i love him! because his talent is just wow. my aunty sitting next to me had quite a horrid reaction i think. she said what is that?! with disgust in her voice and he's just confusing the situation. james has dead straight hair and a really pretty face (he looks like sophie ellis bextor). he's so slim and shy and wears make up and red lipstick. my mum and aunty didn't even want to believe that he was a man.

my mum was saying oh there’s no boundaries anymore and something about how the norm’s no longer the norm. :-/ what really pissed me off is when she said something like oh with this gay thing and this muslim thing. it seems like she’s saying that there should be limits as to how a person decides to harmlessly express themselves. why do people feel like everybody lives just to make them feel comfortable? it’s such a double standard because the same people would like to live their lives exactly how they want, when sometimes they walk in an ignorance and a closed mindedness that is harmful to others.

i walked into the room and heard my aunty say and then they want to say we’re closed minded as if that’s not what it is. i don’t want to be judgemental, especially of people i love, i just want to criticise a way of thinking that too many people are comfortable in. i believe it’s wrong.

I’ve come to understand that when a trans woman is called a man, that is an act of violence. - Laverne Cox

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omg i had such a good day today can you believe it and i want to write about every detail but it's nearly half midnight and i'm so fucking tired lol i think i should get up early and do some homework before school cos lord knows i did none today lool i got home and had tea and read the newspaper lol
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the amazing pop culture quiz!!!

this is my lovely blogger friend lotus' quiz that i'm taking now!! lol it's very exciting!!! :-)))

last thing that inspired you? well there was the film pumzi but also the brilliant hannah hoch exhibition at the whitechapel gallery (where i'm doing my work experience in september!!!).

what do people think you do? idk, i think people think i just sleep and be lazy.

what do you actually do? stress and take life easy. i'm superwoman. i also dance a lot by myself and generally just be (by) myself.

favourite actor or actress? i literally know nothing about them lol but i'm in love with who lupita nyong'o is, she's so important to me. my darling. gary oldman is also a very great actor, i like him a lot.

favourite tv show? errr the boondocks and desmonds. :-)

worst movie you've ever seen? i don't remember watching anything particularly shit. i don't really watch bad stuff, my taste is too good lol, my only problem is a short attention span if nothing happens quickly.

who would you play in the tv show of your life? what does this question even mean lol. idk man i'd be the weirdo who's kind of the main character but not that interested idk??

your top 5 films? okay: beasts of the southern wild, alice in wonderland with johnny depp, pumzi of course, mermaids and princess protection programme.

now for choose-a-side!!!

the future or the past          sofia coppola or wes anderson

       pop corn or ice cream                         comedy or thriller                    colour or b&w

l.a or paris                                                                 trampoline or rollerblade

                                                                                                                            dark chocolate or white

                                       sloth or baby hedgehog

           brittany spears or asparagus spears                              book or documentary (it depends!)

                                                                                                                          sleep in or early rise                     rainbow or shooting star

PUMZI

PUMZI in kiswahili means air. it is also the name of a really great short film (20 minutes) i just watched, by wanuri kahiu. she's a kenyan film director. i saw gifs of pumzi on tumblr today (i think janelle monae would absolutely love the film) and thought hey this looks amazing lemme watch it so i did - after a couple of wanuri's interviews, like this really good one:

she talks about things that i think are really important, but that may be just because i can relate to them as a young african girl who only sees negative images of where she comes from in the media and wants to change it because she knows it's so biased and untrue in the sense that it's not the whole image. (lol it's fun to talk about myself in the third person.) anyway, for the same reasons i can relate to wanuri's film. i find it very beautiful and inspiring, though i understand it's not for everyone. like this "western white feminist from the united states".

i'm going to talk about why i love this film and why it's important okay. okay so first off, the protagonist is called asha, which means life in swahili. she is a young african female scientist. she is a dreamer and is intelligent and is determined. it's not very often that positive images like this are put out for africans, and i think we need to know what we are capable of as a people, but more importantly that our validation must come from within ourselves. for me this is the message that asha represents and it was clear to me from the beginning of the film. she is inquisitive and sensitive and intuitive, which is a lot like me and part of why i really like asha. her society and superiors try to combat or even kill her nature but she rises above it. it seems like it wouldn't be easy to ignore messages like you are not qualified to determine that and take your dream suppressants, but asha makes it seem like it is. she's saying that really you just have to be who you are and do whatever you think is necessary because there are no barriers (which is a message i took from the book 'we need to talk about kevin'). :-)
there's so much more i could say, but i think this film is best watched with an open mind, so you can form your own conclusions. i'm going to tell my friends about it because i love it so much and i plan to watch it at least once more this weekend. and maybe i'll watch beasts of the southern wild again too. :-)

do you fear god?

my nana asked me that question some years ago. i thought of it this morning when my friend was saying how sometimes she just wants to masturbate but then she thinks what about god? it's sad that girls are taught to be hesitant about exploring and enjoying themselves and then someone who doesn't is presented as the only 'ideal'. it's hard to ignore once it's been ingrained into your head.
also i don't think it's a good idea to fear your god so much that you stop yourself from pleasing yourself in any way at all that is harmless...