vulnerable

since a couple of weeks ago my friend kristin and i have been writing notes to each other in this pretty a5 notebook of hers that she got from paperchase. we never discussed it but it sort of became a thing when i asked her to tell me why she is so sad and she did, then we wrote mini reply letters to each other. she is in all of my lessons at school bar two i think, so we see other a lot (hopefully she isn't sick of me ha). we've just been on a week long half term and i missed her a lot. apparently she missed me too and i find that so strange because i'm not very used to that kind of thing. anyway, she doodled and wrote to me when she felt sad or had something to say - like she said she would - and today she gave me the notebook. hopefully she won't mind that i'm copying out this passage of hers, but she is a very good writer and what she wrote is something i can relate to:

i love sleep. i really do. i love the fact that you can exist without being aware of your existence. and i also love dreams, because sometimes they merge with reality, and you can't really tell what's what anymore. i love that merge, because when it happens, it doesn't matter if reality is shit, because it's all mixed up with a dream, and anything can happen in dreams. anything.

i made kristin a playlist for valentines day and i think i'll write her another one with kind of sad songs with beautiful and maybe kind of haunting lyrics, like cut by plumb. i also want to show her this video which i found through another blog:

brené brown is a 'reasearcher storyteller' and through this video she seems so honest and likeable and 

amusing, which are admirable qualities in anybody. In the video she talks about vulnerability and the 

importance of embracing it. she also mentions the original definition of courage and it is so lovely: to tell the 

story of who you are with your whole heart. how gorgeous is that? vulnerability is probably something that 

everybody struggles with at some point and i hope that maybe kristin might take something from this if she 

watches it.

the font was acting up so I spaced everything out, but here is the picture I used to make kristin's valentines playlist: 

i found this through one of my favourite twitter accounts a while ago and it is so fabulously helpful