sadsickstressed

i couldn't go to school today and i'm so annoyed because that means i missed history, which is the only lesson i enjoy and also is a lot of catch up work. the whole of thursday is actually. i feel so shit. yesterday i woke up really late and by the time i left my house at 8.20 there was just soo much traffic and it was raining as well, which always worsens things when you're running late. i take two buses to school and i managed to just miss my second bus and the next one that came was too full to let more people on. cut a long story short, i got to school at 9.50. what a pisstake. i nearly went back home but i just can't deal with all the catch up work. uggghhh. it's so annoying though because if i did go home i probably would have felt alright about going in today, because standing in the cold while it rained for probably half an hour just quickened up the arrival of cold i was starting to get. how convenient.
my aunty came around yesterday after work (she's a teacher) and we stayed up and talked with her till practically midnight lol. how wise considering everyone had work or school the next day. i then went and tried to do some history homework that was due today but i couldn't even concentrate because my throat!!! this pain is unreal. it's like all dry and scratchy and when i cough i want to die. i tried to get into bed but couldn't get comfy and my head was pounding so i went to warm myself some milk. i drank that and it helped a bit but by now it was nearly 1am and just the thought of having to wake up in less than 5 hours to go to school was maddening. i was thinking of going in just for history then coming home but it didn't seem worth it. then i got stressed about school and life and cried a bit and then played some erykah badu really low and it made me feel better then i turned it off and tried singing to myself but my voice sounds even nastier because i'm sick. :-(
i want to read and do homework but i cannot concentrate on anything. i might go into school tomorrow, but i think i'll have to go in at lunchtime. i'm not up to a full day of it, i'll go crazy. :-(