today

my school only has one drama teacher and it's been this way for years. she told us in lesson today that she went to see nirvana at reading festival in 1992!! this was really unexpected. i guess i prejudged her by her appearance without even realising?? every day she wears a black skirt, cardigan, jacket and shoes with a colourful scarf to accessorise and that's the image everybody is used to her having. anyway, she was telling us about really interesting performances that students have done in the past regarding the practical exam we have next week. i noticed for the first time today how her eyes are very tiny, but when she opens them wide then they are either a brilliantly clear sea green, almost turquoise, or as blue as the bare sky on a cold, sunny day. her skin is very smooth despite the lines in her face (she's 47 and always refers to herself as 'very old') and she has a fringe and short bushy brown hair that looks kind of washed out and grey. she is one of the strictest teachers at the school i attend but i have grown to really like her - she softens over the years haha. i remember one time i was helping at something after school a few months ago, and when the sun was setting she pointed out how pretty and pink it was. it really made me smile and the way her face lit up isn't something i'd like to forget. drama isn't one of my favourite subjects as i can be quite shy, but it does give you valuable skills and i like that it's taught so differently to other lessons. desks and chairs and pens and books bore me so much and sometimes i feel like school is turning me into a robot.

this picture and the one above are from google images :-)

but teacher annoyed me today. there's a girl in most of my lessons (laura) who doesn't smile much. she was late to our lesson which was in a classroom today, and when she sat down she was apparently acting 'stroppy' and giving attitude. teacher then sort of mocked her and said 'smile' really sarcastically.  i thought of kristen stewart (who is talented, amazing and beautiful) when laura fake smiled back for literally a second. it's okay to not smile because that gets tiring and mightn't be an accurate representation of what you may feel. it also isn't the default human expression so i don't know why people always want to see it. of course smiles can be beautiful, but that isn't the point. i read this very great article. i think everybody should because it supports kristen stewart in a voice that is often unheard and i love it.

it's my brother's 6th birthday and i rarely do homework on fridays so now i'm going to watch nirvana videos of when they played at reading.