pretty face and electric soul

last night i went to see lana del rey at hammersmith apollo with my cousin marilyn. i had a pretty great time, lana's such a precious angel face oh my. i didn't take any pictures or videos, i just wanted to try and watch lana and enjoy the music - which i did, and it was nice. i stood somewhere in the middle of the standing area and my view was quite alright if i avoided looking through people's camera screens. it smelt of beer and salty popcorn and people but i didn't mind so much. my cousin sat down on the little bit of carpet we were on because apparently someone behind us was smoking something and she felt lightheaded (i was too busy swaying to notice). i felt kind of alone because i don't think she enjoyed it so much, but when lana sang summertime sadness marilyn held my hand from the floor and it was a sweet comfort while i sort of danced. i'm listening to that song now and of course it's lovely but i'm not in the same room as lana and it sounds distant idk. it didn't feel real last night, watching lana my baby doll pouting and singing and being all cutesy up on stage, but now i wish i could've stayed all night and eventually the crowd would thin until it was just us and she was practically singing to me. it was a pretty intimate venue i think, it was all dark and misty. lana had palm trees and an all female string quartet and an all male band (guitar, piano, drums) and two lions on either side of the stage (i wish they were real omg). she kept bending down to drink what looked like a milkshake and she walked in front of the stage a few times; to sing without you and take pictures and collect flowers and letters etc. it all showed on the big cinema screen at the back of the stage. lana's singing was so flawless and she looked really pretty. i definitely want to see her live again someday. she looked so happy to be singing for people and i love to see that.
i don't sound very enthusiastic or excited when i talk about the concert, i didn't get much of a buzz from it, but i did enjoy it. maybe it's because lana's very shy and slow and soft and sad, she mainly walked up and down the stage. she did say that she never really has much to say on stage but she was glad to be there with her friends, and i don't even know if you can get any cuter than that.