so i was in textiles n idk how the convo came about but basically i ended up talking to this girl about transgender people she kept saying she "can't tolerate them" and she can't imagine why you would not want to be what you are born as (i have SO much to say about that) it made me so upset she actually even said "people should be happy i can tolerate gay people and lesbians" cos i kept asking why why why and that tells me that rlly she doesn't accept them it's more like an attitude i've come across before like oh i'll say they're okay for the sake of equality (real actual words i've heard from a real actual "human") THIS IS SUCH A HUGE FUCKING PROBLEM I'M SO ANGRY AND UPSET THAT THE WORLD IS IN A POSITION WHERE PEOPLE'S PERSONAL EXPRESSION AND IDENTITY IS LABELLED AS WRONG BECAUSE IT DOESN'T FIT CONVENTIONAL IDEAS IT DOESN'T REFLECT WHAT THE MAJORITY "VALUES" A.K.A HAS GOTTEN USED TO HOW IS THIS OKAY THAT INDIVIDUAL PEOPLE WITH INDIVIDUAL WANTS AND CIRCUMSTANCES AND NEEDS AND EXPERIENCES ARE CONSTANTLY ABUSED IN THIS WORLD IT IS NOT FUCKING FAIR!!!!!! i really honestly tried to express and defend this but i was overwhelmed by my sadness and also shock because the conviction when she said tolerate was hurtful to me like imagine what actual transgender people must face ugh the pain they must feel so threatened and it's not understandable why don't people fucking step out of themselves and try to see that IT IS OKAY to let people JUST BE as and who they are?!???!??!!!? i just feel to scream and cry rn tbh and the worst thing is we were in the middle of a lesson and my teacher hates it when we talk cos we get distracted which makes sense but it's SO annoying cos our convos are always un-silly and she told me to be quiet JUST as i was coming around to try to explain to the girl why she was being ignorant and exactly what that means but yeah she said something so so bad like it didn't make sense to me at first cos of how she worded it then i understood and just felt to die she was like people have strong opinions about everything you can't make them change their opinion cos it's their opinion just like how people have opinions about race ARE U DUMBBB SHE BASICALLY IS EXCUSING RACISM AND ALSO USING THAT TO JUSTIFY HER LACK OF HUMANITY OH MY GOD IS LIFE EVEN REAL??????? i tried telling her but opinions can be harmful BUT SHE WAS SPEAKING OVER ME AND IGNORING ME which is hard for me to deal with because not only is she disrespecting a whole group of unique individuals generally but me too on a personal level it kind of kicked my confidence because i'm rlly not a good arguer or debater or fighter i'm not usually confrontational but i can get very defensive it was already so hard for me to experience and i was talking softlybeing patient and common code of conversation she could not follow maybe she took it personally maybe she thought i was attacking her no i was trying to attack an ideology and as i did so i ffelt so responsible for changing the world and i felt to give up and basically i realised that i cannot i am a slow thinker on the spot yes but i will be the voice of the oppressed people of this world i will protect who i can how i can and effect a change because all oppression is connected so my own struggle is related to yours so if i'm fighting for me i'm also fighting for you (i feel so charged)
the other incident of my day was kind of minor in comparison but i feel too drained to write about it and it's also nearly 11.30pm lol so i'll just end this post with a poem i wrote on friday
PROLOGUE TO REVOLUTION: GETTING WOKE
a voice can dicTate
a visceRal respOnse
tO THe picture its
vibrations violently paint
an aroma can send you running
into a race for sovereignty like
a whiff of a treat inspires the starved
to steal JUST/ICE to eat
a face can RECREATE
a taste of PAST GLORY:
a delicacy, a memory so sweet
you almost wish you never ate
that touch will be
the tingle that FINALLY triggers
the explosion that
will set you FREE
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