knowledge

i had a supply teacher in r.s today. he was very interesting. we were looking at evolution biology creation sciencey stuff that i don't know much about. i think the bitter wind has frozen my brain because it's so difficult to concentrate on anything right now. i didn't do any actual work in the lesson, but i did listen to mr. teacher man when he spoke. he is greek and his warm voice is so lovely and slightly accented. sometimes he speaks quietly and you feel to hang on to his every word. i found his opinions intriguing and i wanted to sit with him by a fire and hear all he had to say about stuff he knew. people's thoughts are amazing.
it was kind of random but he told us about carl jung's theory about the collective unconscious. i can't remember exactly what he said, but it was something about every living thing being connected by our unconsciousness. apparently this isn't a very popular theory among educated circles or something like that, but i think it makes sense?? mr. teacher man said it's because the world came from one single speck or something (i really don't understand the big bang theory, nobody has ever really explained it to me) so if we all came from that we must all be somehow connected. that's interesting. :-) i like the idea of being connected unconsciously to the trees standing both tall and tiny on our horizons, the delicate flowers brightening up dull roadsides and decorating cute cottages, the forest animals roaming and hunting in the night. i watched this video this morning before school and it's refreshing to think that we could be connected to nature that is so tranquil. psychology and sociology and things like that interest me a great deal, i want to learn about them in depth someday. there's this really intelligent guy called george the poet who is, um, a poet and i've listened to a couple of them. he's really intelligent, he studies politics, psychology and sociology at cambridge and i want to do that. i also want to do english literature?? anyway, here's a poem by him (he's more of a spoken word artist so reading his work on paper would have a different effect):

i think artists are some of the greatest people out there, especially because there are so many different forms of it and they all can touch you in different ways. i would love to be an artist, except i don't seem to have much talent ha. i've become interested in poetry lately, but i'm not so great at understanding it and i wonder if i am unintelligent. i think the fact that i appreciate it is important enough though. and early cinema seems interesting, particularly after i watched this and this. can't i just take a break from this conventional learning thing called school and listen to people talk and converse with them and do stuff? the following video is really relatable (i think??) and quotable, so rather than list a lot of words i'll just post it ha.

i don't know what's wrong with me today, i always get like this in wintry weather, but i'm either really angry or sad a lot of the time. this whole cheerful thing isn't working out quite well so i'll just let this, whatever it is, pass rather than fill myself with false hope. i listened to violet this morning and the line when i get what i want i never want it again has been stuck in my head all day.