this seems off

i feel so silly about the whole deal of school sometimes.
i wake up earlier than my body wants to then i dress up in a uniform i dislike and eat as much - or as little - breakfast as time allows then rush out of my house to catch a bus to catch another bus that will deposit me outside a school where i'll have to move from uncomfortable chair to uncomfortable chair to learn about stuff i don't always quite care about (but maybe would if teachers cared to explain the stuff's relevance to my life). then i wait for ages at a bus stop to get on a bus that will take me to the other bus i need to get home then i get home and eat a lil somethin then do chores then do homework late into the night, hoping i'm doing this school thing right (cos if not then i already fear for what will become of my life.)
none of this seems healthy.
and i'm so scared of being unconsciously molded into this person that i don't want to be with values that may not be true to my nature and not being able to stop it. sometimes i inwardly scold myself for even wanting to take the easy route and the average route and the always-say-yes route. it's so hard to keep strong and keep fighting to be myself. i know i have a warrior spirit but i'm so scared it might fall asleep.